Sunday, 25 October 2015

THE POWER OF MAN


The wells ran dry. High in the sky, the sun raged on, signifying the passage of day with its angry glare that just got angrier as the day swelled. Over the towering Eucalyptus, the hawks glided, patiently waiting for a lapse in which to poach a meal from an unsuspecting predator.

There was nothing assuring about the bleak sight beneath those bulked and stalwart trunks.  There were fallen trees, some wider than three boa constrictors standing fully stretched in a circle, tail to tail. Some were freshly fallen, a half-chopped fig here, a de-branched pine over there, with some rotting away in a choke of fungi, their length and girth sprayed with whitish powdery moss and some brownish mushroom with white stems, making the usually brown or rosy trunks take a completely different hue. 

Beside them were their stumps, jagged in accordance to how well the chainsaw ripped through. A groggy squirrel jumped timidly onto one of those stumps, sniffed about before sinking into a nearby drained scrub. The sun's rays streamed through a tiny clearing ahead of my crawling body with ease, maybe rather thankful that it got to express its heavenly wrath unhindered in atleast this one place, for the dense forest cover reduced its streams to mere specks that just dappled the cold bed but never troubled the shade.  

However, soon it would hold its own celestial carnival, for the forest cover was fast dwindling owing to the invasive habits of the invaders. And on this one spot where the sun thrived as it pleased, a herbage thrived, a puny, heavy- leafed shrub with pricky stems, three-sided leaves that grew evenly along the axis and yellow-coloured flowers with a dark red centre. Aside from this luxuriant shrub, the floor of the forest was greatly empty, with the floors damp and the soil clammy. The few undergrowths were either dead or dying. If they were thriving, then they were parasitic.  It was cold too, as if this was nature's own refridgerator. 

The verdant green around the floor were of the algae that clung onto dear life on the wet bell-bottoms of the trees. Those and the spiralling plants that grew downwards, nature's own rebel without a cause. And these parasitic plants grew so well that some hang lower than the lowest hanging branch of the looming and humming trees, brushing against the floor sofly as a wind whispered past.

From a distance, came a low buzzing sound we here had come to recognize all too well, a noise that, when it rendered the air, would go on for a lengthened time too long to be called a moment but short enough to be considered a while and its silence would portend sorrow. When it went silent, my heart jolted. There rose a choral distressed shrieking of birds, which was immediately followed with a joint flapping of wings and my eyes, angled to the skies saw, through the numerous boughs and trunks, a flight of birds crossing high above the highest branches. Some perched on the trees over my head and around me, chirping in distress. 

The buzzing sound rose again, and this time, went on and on and on until it became another lowly, monotonous sound that hummed and lulled one into an involuntary slumber. Occassionally, it would muffle before humming even louder the next minute. Then it stopped completely. I gave an indrawn breath. There rested, throughout the forest, a sense of trepidation within the short moment of silence that felt like an eternity, a quietude that heralded an approaching danger and I felt it that something monstrous was coming. 

A heavy creaking sound rose. There was the distressed screeching of monkeys, and another flight of birds obscured even the tiny sunshine over my head as they flew to safety. The unsettling shudder grew more disturbing. A rumbling sound caught my ear. Somewhere in the forest, in the distance, the tip of the tall Megalocarpus, seen above all the rest, swayed and swayed.  But it was in a single direction. Oh, it wasn't swaying! It was falling. 

There was a blood-chilling heavy breaking of branches and some sinister, lowly whirring sound as a fray of birds screaming and trees roaring in pain compounded the disaster in progress. Then came the final thud, an elephantine and clumsy fall that sent weighty quakes around the forest and rattled the heavy trees around me as I was left clutching to a trunk as my nerves were shuddered by the falling force. There, once again, the power of man had been proven.


Saturday, 24 October 2015

AN OPEN LETTER TO MY DEAR SOFAPAKA

Dear Sofapaka,

Receive greetings from me from the discomfort of my anguish. It is my heartfelt wish that you are all doing fine, even though it is evident that you aren't. But that's besides the point. I am here to pour out my sentiments on the rapid deteroriation of your being and whether there is anything to be done to stop you from careering into the singeing abyss you are plunging into without any brakes. This is a sentimental letter so forgive me if I'm spot on on the emotions but way off the mark in facts, though to be honest, I believe I have most facts spot on as well. Anyway to back to my sentiments-

In the year 2009, being a novice in this field called football, I found myself looking for a place to call home (basically a team to support). I must admit that trying to find acquaintance in this circle of football fandom is a difficult affair owing to football's outrageous popularity. Sure you attach yourself to whatever team is winning at the moment, but after falling knee-deep into the fanatical murks like the rest, you begin to nurture passion and love and admiration and adoration and all that you thought you knew and loved is replaced by what you actually know and love. That year, I began following the then Kenya Premier League-K.P.L (now Sportpesa Premier League) and was immediately pulled towards AFC Leopards, owing to the influence of those around me and my ethnicity (funny how this thing is pulled into everything, huh). However, after exploring and carving my own path, I figured that aside from appreciating the rich history of AFC Leopards, I harboured no exalting reservations for the team. So I embarked on a solo journey of allignment and that's when I saw you. Your raw freshness, your unblemished reputation, your capturing presence caught my eye and enchanted my heart as a fetching lady from heavens would. You had just stepped into the league, yet there you were, causing all sorts of havoc and chaos and fracas. You rattled establishment and mocked status and class. You mocked history and wrote your own. You beat the best and became the best. Throughout the 2009 campaign, you impressed me with your sleek, flowing brand of football, which I must admit is candy to my eye no matter what any other random earth dweller says. I didn't know how, but coming to the close of the season, as you wrote your name in the KPL title winners books, I was charmed. My heart had thawed. I had at last found a place I could attach myself to and hold on for the long run. Sofapaka became my family and I vowed to follow them. Who wouldn't melt at this classic tale of an underdog rising above their limitation?

Since then you have gone from strength to strength, from winning back to back Gotv shield cups, making an unapologetic foray into CAF Champions League preliminaries ( unheard of in Kenyan football recent history).  You beat Egyptian side Zamalek, another history written down as beating Egyptian opponents had become something akin to feeding dogs soap. You were seen, you impressed and you earned the respect you deserved, at just two years old on the big stage. And the consistency thereafter has seen you ranked amongst Kenya's elite football outfits just six years into your premiership status. That's a meteoric rise right there, the kind of stuff only dreams, fantasies and makebelieve are made of. And it is this fast rise that has me worried that perhaps you are running out of steam. Has the pressure of being consistently at the top caught up with you and now wearing you down, dear Sofapaka?  Are you sick of wanting to be the best? If so, why? Certainly I agree that you are not so badly off, but it is your propensity to exceed expectations that has me penning this letter now that you barely even meet them. The cash turbulence rocking your boat is to blame, and I understand that, but dear Sofapaka, we just need to raise our eyes a little higher and see that a cash-strapped Gor Mahia, running on pure passion of their players, technical bench and fans, steamroll and burge into history as if they bought those history books for personal entries. While I wouldn't want to compare your situation to Gor,I believe their never-say-die attitude is worth emulating. We can't let our brokeness define how high we rise because, truth is, the money situation might go on for a while since it is an issue of challenge in the entire sport here at home.  So it's either we bite the bullet or sink into the null of has-beens. Our league is nothing to be proud of moneywise, but you gave us a reason to believe when you didn't have as much as experience, let alone cash, remember? We shouldn't cede that initial spirit to hopelessness. The likes of Demonde Selenge, Bob Mugalia and the evergreen John Barasa, the throbbing epicentre of the class of 2009, should be awarded with a better respect than this. Certainly going down will only insult their efforts. And surely we can't let the ageless, the fine wine, John Barasa, the only remaining member of the historymakers, down as we are now. He is our highest scorer throughout and surely we could repay his dedication and loyalty by making the goals he scores for us count.

Along the way, you have gathered fans and admirers and we hope that you don't let our passion hang in the balance. I never knew in six years I could have loved so, but now, seeing you in such turmoil makes my heart bleed and my bones crackle, it tightens my nerves to the point of splintering and that's how I know I have loved too much. We just have to keep trying. The glory is ours to lose, dear Elly Kalekwa, so it is my greatest hope that we keep it.

From a distraught fan,
The crazy
Chizzi Freshi.

Sunday, 11 October 2015

RELIGIOUS MUSINGS (Christianity)


Religion is a noble practice that, unfortunately, has the capacity to reduce the most intelligent of us into a walking mess of retrogression. For every wonderful religious folk, there are a few extremists who smear this aristocratic front with the unholy muds it seeks to make redundant. This they do by either being too uptight, holier-than-thou, snobbish and condescending or by deliberately misquoting scriptures to further a selfish agenda. Then, there is a special case that use religion for self development, which in itself is not a bad thing, until you realise it is 'at all cost', the flocks I am preaching to be damned, humanity be damned. Nothing done that laughs in the face of humanity bears fruits that aren't bitter or painful. Religion is one of the pillars of hope for humanity and thus must be treated with the reverence it deserves.

My religious background taught me to respect religion and that rings true even now, though I m a skeptic. People's belief and faith in religion should never ever be taken for granted, which therefore means that those using religion for the betterment of their own pockets while leaving the flock still flocking in poverty have best come out of their con-man shaped cocoon and be honest. The tithe and offering offered are to furnish your Highrise apartment and buy you a Beamer. Lay it all bare. It's okay. True, maybe it will be detrimental and self defeating but humanity complexity has your back, you will still have your stalwart believers.

Still on religious folks riding on religion -shaped business agenda, isn't it ironical that some of the folks who claim to have a personal relationship with God barely have a sense of shame or empathy? That even when they have wronged and their awful misadventure has led to a loss of life, they still claim innocence and cast aspersions to those calling them out of their fault?  Isn't it ironical that the humility they preach to us, the humility they tell us God expects from us, is barely a term they can spell? That, as they speak of how pure Jesus was, their hearts are darker than a moonless night and their motives contain more evil than the name devil? The recent outing of fake pastors has been happening at such startling frequency that it makes religion as a whole look like a glorified syndicate of wrong doers. It is high time the christian folks reconsider their ways and shift the trust they have dumped on these so called Men of God onto something else, maybe wholly onto The Holy Bible. Men of God! More like men from dogs. If I sound angry, its because I am. The motives of many churches today has shifted from spreading the Gospel then making money to making money then making money then making more money; those silly believers can go swallow soap and positive thoughts. Churches have become burdens, cursed mansions of sin and christians should distance themselves from such churches and just work their way around the Bible. Damn, these pastors aren't even telling you anything that isn't in the Bible and understanding metaphors is quite easy if you read well.

Moving onto the religious folks themselves, bigotry is a sin. Seems some don't get that. While being a human who plays by the rules of a Diety might come with benefits such as ranking higher on the morality ladder, intolerance and at times outright loathe to people who don't consent to your set of rules is an indespicable act that I believe even the father of lies might be tempted to run away from. It doesn't matter how awful 'other' human beings are, discrimination, dogmatism and hatred are not admirable traits. It doesn't matter how many charities you support single-handedly or how well you can manoeuvre the Bible blindfolded, when you hate, you befoul all your good deeds. The greatest commandment according to God himself is love one another (see I also read the Bible). True, its hard, at times downright impossible, to love another, but that's when tolerance is required. It's an action, not just a noun. Sometimes ( and I believe its almost every time), there is usually an undercurrent of reason flowing beneath the tide of rashness, a voice that asks for second thoughts and second chances. A voice that asks you to forgive. That's the voice of humanity. It's there in almost all of us, and if you feel it, listen to it and follow what it tells you. Associating with only one of your kind is comfortable, but being able to accomodate others that you have nothing in common with is priceless. Being accomodative is one of the best traits any of us could ever possess.

So, therefore, in our daily dealings with life, let us remind ourselves that Religion is not a tool for separation and self-magnification but is an important column on which we support our cause to rid ourselves of these ghosts of prejudice that make us lose hope in ourselves.


Saturday, 10 October 2015

A DREAMER'S PRAYER

Part 2

The magnitude of this dream I know not, maybe just you and the devil might know, but I look not to ask the devil for favours before I exhaust all my options with You, oh God. Hitherto, my entire existence has been structured, systematic and possibly even a lie. So no more shall I look to buy time, for I have wasted enough hours to let some more pass me by. So on this day, and every other day henceforth, let me be able to nullify this mental block that tries to nest in this mind. Doesn't this filth obstacle not know the bore it lay on a fragile heart fuelled by pure passion and purpose? I wish to be able to twist its slimy throat between my mortal fingers. I was built for this, and no hinderance can stall nor hold hostage anymore this ball of resilience, for this body is a host of eminent legacy. I won't stop the chase so as to appease my lazy alter ego, for I have wasted enough time being a slouch to give up this new-found, relieving purpose and focus. Lord, don't let me let myself die before I let this dream out, for it pulls me, draws me with a force stronger than a magnetic attraction and failure to try and reach it will be the ultimate failure and letdown to, not just myself but to everyone with high expectations of me, and most importantly you. Would you want that? Then give me the strength. My bones are hollow and fractured. My muscles are cramped. My brain is dead, my spirit is broken. My last ounce of strength is spent and now my fingers can no longer hold. My eyes are dimming. I am sick and weary. Wornout and deadbeat. Yet I can't stop this dream from happening. It'a all over me, Dear God, like some kind of disease, like a compulsive habit that I cannot rid myself of and one that I surely wouldn't want to rid myself of even if I had that power. Even at my most laguid and indolent, it creeps up on me, swarm me like critters of prey on a prey. Its malignancy is as potent as cancerous growth. Let me put it out there, Dear God, before  it bursts out of the seams of my thoroughly incapacitated body and leave me a shell of putrification.

No Dear God, I am not asking you to lay it for me on a silver platter. All I am asking for is the strength. I want to hold on just a little longer, push just a little harder, to do it just a little better, to weather the extremes just a bit more courageously, yet I know, all that cannot and will not happen if the only thing I keep doing is keeping on dreaming. I set out to meet these expectations and surpass them and I call upon you to hold my hand and guide me to safety. I am a mess, but I wouldn't want to die a mess that failed to heed when summoned to righten wrongs.

So help me God. I may not be religious, but my belief in You is steadfast, and I know You believe in me too. So I ask that You see me through and bless all that I do.

Amen.

Friday, 9 October 2015

Act 1

Scene: (yet to decide)

[Robert and Lina step into the living room. Elvis is crouched infront of the stereo system. He is fiddling with the knobs as if trying to fix something. Lina crumples back into her previous couch as Robert, painting in hand, drags gracefully to the sofa he had been sitting in.]

ROBERT : (sounding concerned as he speaks to Lina) My dear, will you not go and have yourself some food?

LINA : (wincing slightly as she closes her eyes and reclines in her couch) Oh dad its okay. I'm full. ( she opens a single eye and looks at the shiny yellow bulbs hanging from the chandelier) I just have enjoyed something quite heavy.

ELVIS : (turning a cheeky smile to his sister) Weh! Don't tell me the date fell through.

LINA : (sitting up suddenly) Jesus, shut up !

ROBERT : (looking lost) What date?

ELVIS :  Oh come on Lina, everyone knows it. I knew it even before you knew it. (He ducks to avoid the pillow Lina hurls at him. He picks it up and laughs on) That doesn't change the fact that I knew it.

ROBERT : (looking more confused) What date?

LINA : (sounding angered) Hey let me never find you up in my business again.

ELVIS : ( standing up and rushing to his feet, a wry smile on him) Ah Lina kubali tu. Its not like dad atakuchapa na slippers juu you are dating.

ROBERT : (now completely disoriented and annoyed) What date ?

LINA : Elvis! Elvis! Elvis! How many times did I call you?

ELVIS : (scratching his head) If my amnesia serves me right- I don't remember.

ROBERT : ( at last short on patience) Okay you two, stop with your young adult, yet-to-fully-mature squabbling. (Both Lina and Elvis go quiet. Robert nods approvingly) Glad I am understood. So will I hear about these dates or what?

LINA : ( jumping in before Elvis can open his mouth) Oh, today dad, my friends and I decided to go on blind dates so I ended up with this hank who-

ROBERT : (holding up a hand) Hold it hold it.  Hank what what?

LINA : ( breaks into a laughter and is soon joined by Elvis as Robert frowns in unamusement) Oh dad a hank is just a handsome man.

ROBERT : ( nodding) oh - ho. Cut the old man some slack. He can't tell a hand from a duck.

LINA :  Huh?

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Exerpt from my newest work, a play titled 'Why I Hate My Neighbour' which is explores relations between two  different cultures and races forced to unite in the most divisive of circumstances. It promises to be a fun read full of amazing twists and humour as well as a message or two. Keep it here for a few more sporadic excerpt updates.

CHAPTER 9: A Strange Night

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   So should she? The thought rankled on, heeding to exactly none of her pretensious efforts at distractions. Beyond the walls of her room, someone groaned and mumbled intelligible nonsense. Anna sneered. After drinking himself silly, Bosco had slumped into the sofa and was probably just waking up, wondering in what dimensions exactly the non-existent blanket had fallen into and whether the bed had indeed been that small when he slept on it. She turned and looked at the dress spread on the bed. She reached for the hem and felt the skirt between her index finger and thumb. Wouldn't it be nice if she could be happy for once? It didn't matter how, or with whom, but wouldn't it- wouldn't it be nice to have fun? To live life and laugh out loud? Marouane hadn't bothered  returning her calls. Mad- sure, but the lack of even a sliver of concern hurt her most, the fact that he had refused to cut her some slack. Was it hard to understand that she had a sick brother? Did he think it was any easier on her to disappoint him? But wait; those were wrong questions anyway. The tasking puzzle was; did he even care about her? Did he even love her? She twisted her lips in disgust and began channelling hatred from the basement of her regular emotion home and tried directing the venom towards him. He had proven he was yet just as selfish as those schmucks he calls friends. Sam gave a low groan. She turned to him but the boy was not waking. He turned and faced the centre of the room, eyes half closed, mouth splayed open with saliva drooling down the side of his mouth, a show of how enjoyable the sleep was after a long day in the hospital. Anna reached down and parted him lightly on his side belly and cooed to his ear. Just as he had startled, he fell right back seamlessly into his peaceful sleep. She looked at him, but her thoughts had taken off. She would go. She would go to the party. She would look for Emma and Priscilla and the three would see the night through in the best possible way. She reached down for the dress in resolve-
She stood before the mirror, the koroboi held in her left hand. She looked good. Beautiful! The earrings dangling down her ears glittered in spasms, twinkling like stars fallen on. The hair, straightened and held in a bun behind her head, sheened in its pitch black shade and her radiant face glowed and her lips glistened with the mild redness of the lipstick. Beautiful! She threw on some leggings to ward off the biting chill, picked up a tiny clutch bag and threw in some other numerous effects. Then, she picked up a black, woolen jacket, pecked Sam lightly on his cheeks, blew out the koroboi and stepped out, leaving the door ajar behind her. What she didn't know however, was that the ill hand of fate was not done messing with her, that the culmination of  events coming in the next few hours would render that kiss to her brother the last.

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Excerpt from my very first attempt at a full novel writing 'The Red Hills Of Ivojo' which I'm still working on with hopes of publishing.

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